मुसीबते...

एक ये मेरा चार्म है जो खत्म नही होता, और एक उसका हाम्र(फुल) एफ्फेकत है जो कम नही होता...

एक ये मेरी परेशानिया है जो खत्म नही होती, और एक ये उनकी निशानिया है जो कम नही होती...

एक ये मेरा कैरिएर है जो सेटल नही होता, और एक ये माँ-पा का टेंशन है जो कम नही होता...

एक मेरी लव-लाइफ है जो नही बस्ती, और एक ये उसे बसाने की मेरी कोशिशे है जो कम नही होती...

एक ये मेरी मित्र है जो नही मानती[नाराज़ है], और एक ये मैं हु जो उसे नही मनाती...

एक ये कमबख्त पदाई है जो खत्म नही होती, और एक ये मेरी और पड़ने की तमन्ना है जो कम नही होती...

एक ये आदते है जो छोड़ी नही जाती, और एक ये गिल्टी- कॉन्सिओउस मैं हु जो इनके बिना रह नही पाती...

एक ये फिल्मे है जो अच्ही बनाई नही जाती, और एक ये मेरी उम्मीदे हैं जो मुझे theatre है ले जाती...

आखिरी में... गौर फरमाँइऐगा...

एक ये नींद है जो नही है आती, और एक ये उसे पुरी करने की मेरी ख्वाहिश है की हमेशा मेरी क्लास्सेस है मिस हो जाती...

Happily Ever After!!!

I never thought that these days of peace and pleasure will ever come back...to me;for me. My life is getting back to normal...am willingly wearing that pleasant smile...laughing out all loud on not at all funny things. "Daring" and all set to take revenge.

You know when for the first time i knew what revenge meant??? I was in 3rd standard..Daddy bought me action k shoes and Kapil Dev was the brand ambassador for them then. So along with the shoes we got a comic as well...you know special offer. Kapil Dev was a Super Hero in that comic book...he peeto-fy all villains(his asst.'s) and then at the end their boss had a dialogue "Kapil..you have killed my brother i will not leave you like this...i will take revenge". Since this being a typical hindi film dialogue...i assumed "Revenge as Badla" and it is only later that i realised how correct my interpretations were. I am so proud to be "ME".

P.s: Am not good at communicating things they are as chaotic as me :))

Chak De India...

The only relief during Jhoom Barabar Jhoom was "Chak De India's" trailor...Yeah this was a statement "i" made. With such huge expectations from the film, i return home smiling, humming "chak de...oh chak de India" & a new developed passion...for sports, Hockey.

The film talks against gender bias, criticizes regionalism, minority bashing, and of course patriotism...all in one. The director manages to portray it with a delicacy, nothing cliche.Yes the "Indian Womes's Hockey Team" does go the Lagaan way and notch the inconceivable victory, but it does it with a difference. Making the film a winner all the way. With its rag tag team members who come from nowhere. For any average looking, good actor like me this is an ideal movie for debue.

Coach Kabir Khan; balanced, there's no sequence when he's allowed his usual larger than life act, restrained, which in all ways makes the film all the more realistic & entertaining. Chakde's Kabir Khan truly remains one of Shah Rukh's finest performances (another Film Fare may be even a national award). The new look with a beard suits him.

Intentionally not sharing the story, when SRK gets a chance to coach the women's hockey team; his dream is to make it win the World Cup, an impossible feat. Because, in the first place, there is no team, just a bunch of girls who have come together with a baggage of class, region and interpersonal rivalries. The small town girls hate the uber snobs; the city-slickers think Jharkhand is a jungle, the seniors can't handle the juniors stealing the limelight and petty camps create a virtual gang-war which even builds into a mutiny against the disciplinarian coach. The only thing that brings them together is gender bias — something they all have faced at some point in their life, even we do. Great performances by a bunch of unknowns. A story very well written and treated. Like RDB i have no second thoughts in calling it a master-piece. Such films happen in a life-time and people associtaed with this are so lucky.

The only disappointment...i wasn't there, wish could have been there. Playing, Fighting and Winning for my country...in "reel" atleast.

Chak De India... Chak De Jaideep Sahni... Chak De Shimit Amin... Chak de "Yash Raj Films".

P.s: My favorites undoubtedly...Komal Chautala, Balbir Kaur, Preeti Sabharwal, Bindia Naik, Vidiya Sharma...all from the cast & crew you deserve a pat on your back. Good Job Done. A must watch for all Indians & Australian's.

":)" You'll come home with this.

On Friendship..DaY

Well...like any other day my day went off fine...i guess with time and things around we have gone at a level where it isn't important to celebrate...even wish, as we assume they are there.
I always claim that all my friends are my best friends...Honestly; i had just one friend who was really close to me its been a year almost and am still convincng myself that gone are those days...We fought like idiots on not at all important things...atleast now i believe they were not important. She's still upset or may be hurt...don't know...can't say :(
We don't talk na... i have deleted her phn number from ma phn buk evn her pics, she's in ma ignore list on orkut..lolz
Ok...She was my bestest of friends...will remain...we laughed like insane, even cried...for reasons???shhhh...Talk on phone for like the longest ever(wid parents yelling each side) and shared memories from kindergarten till date...From Shopping to Shoplifting...from Discotheque's to Ganna juice treats we had all...Yea those were the best days of my life.
Ok...I MISS YOU, i want to cherish those memories forever...please don't come back.

Money Matters

The Title suggests am sharing some tips on money making, saving. How to file returns(Tax payers)???

The only thing I have realized in the midst of this night at 1.40am in bed trying all hard to sleep is that there are few things in life money can’t buy for everything else you really need to have it in plenty.
My phone memory is 23mb as I never had the money to buy that memory card…so the only song which my phone has is "She’s so lucky…She’s a star but she cry cry cry in the lonely heart thinking…" by Ms. Spears. See how people with bad taste in music are like.

The only aim am aiming is to earn more and some more money by all means. To work hard say for next few years and then sit back and enjoy life.
As my 5year law course is on its way to get over am scared…blank…aimless.

My Parents believe am the most intelligent female created by god; of course my Brother is the best in his (god’s) male lot.
They are expecting me to crack any civil service examination or even a PCS (J) for them is fine. I have no arguments to favor their belief.

As a person am a performer aspiring to become an actor, I mean am an actor but now I aspire to make it big…to that level…Movies, where there’re millions who watch you, criticize you, love you. For me it is no easy than cracking these, may be more difficult. Am all set to work hard more and little more.

I really don’t know what made me write this stupid blog but one thing is for sure am feeling sleepy now…So Tip for the day…ok Night…ahem whatever…If in the middle of a night you are not sleeping…start writing…within minutes you’ll start yawning and in seconds without even waiting for your system to turn off completely…Grrrr(For details refer pic attached)

Good Night Readers...

Making of Black & White…Chapter-II

Well we met and started interacting… in other words orkutting. I really can’t comment what impression I had on them but among them for sure Swati impressed me…After all she had a story with her. I also want to add that the day at ansals after knowing that these guys are up to a movie I seriously tried hard to impress them with all forms of acting I knew from these many years of experience…As if they are casting coordinators taking audition for a Yash Raj Banner…Lolz.
So after a week of interaction via orkut Ms. Shalini ordered me to drop in at Safdarjung Enclave as there’s some kind of skit happening and they’re still searching for a female actor. The order was quite tempting for someone like me who’s been on leave from acting since long…Aah. Was scared and even though I said yes to her initially I gave a second thought to it and planned that I will not visit them. Acting according to me needs to be practiced it’s a learning process…I was out of touch for long. The professionals there will notice this… its better I should not go. I had these thoughts running in my mind and then Kartik called and asked “how many more minutes?” I could not resist the pressure and finally visit them.
As soon as I entered the room Ankur Sir briefed me about the role and asked me to do it.
Ufff…well I did whatever I thought should be the best and then he said great going, indeed I had now three different roles to portray. With just one day of rehearsal I was on track… and then I met Piyush as well who was also their in the skit. I noticed that while rehearsing Piyush is the only one who enjoys my performance the most. We were to perform for Hp’s Marcom meet name of our production “Shamshan.com” Written & Directed By: Ankur Suman. We were still searching for our dear Lalaji in the play…and Shalini introduced Naveen. So with just 2days of rehersals we staged “Shamshan.com” at Bristol…Gurgaon. We did well…how can I say that…well my director was happy and his client even remembered our names…So I can still act.

Then Shalini told me about the auditions happening for “City of Djinns” and we were introduced to “Dramatech” a theatre group for IIT Delhi as well by Ankur sir’s reference.

So we did “Chainpur ki Daastan” with Dramatech. We bole toh Kartik, Naveen, Piyush and me.
Shalini by the time had left for Chandigarh…her new Job Place…JWT; she’s a copywriter by profession.

Okay too many short stories…huh but you have to bear them all these are adding flavors to the making.

So we did Chainpur.

Along with it we decided to enroll for Barry John Acting School just to get ourselves evaluated as actors. Ourselves…initially we were 3...Piyush, Naveen and me. Then in the admission lists it was just me and Naveen. And after our first 4 classes it was only me…Naveen went London…office. He returned before results.
Meanwhile I spent 48Hrs from a day daily on City of Djinns…okay among all of us…just me and Kartik were there in Djinns. We were forced to work real hard by our dear Director Rudra Sir

And now i leave it all on you to think and think some-more ways to make movies...your first one's. And hey the pic along says it all the hardwork part... I give up...can't write so much...patience lacks!!!

Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix...contd

On a serious note i enjoyed the movie...totally right from the first scene. You wore a pleasant smile throughout.

It isn't that am a die-hard follower of these english movies. But for this one you can call me a "pottermaniac"... Hold it guys am not falling for daniel as harry.

But Ron played by Rupert Grint did extremely well... literally. I know he's few years younger to me and 5 movies older...may be more. He's cute

I believe Daniel was just the natural however Ron's got an expressive face so does Emma as Hermoine. She's always been good in all movies and in this one's she's even better. Even others like Neville, George and Fred Weasley and especially Luna were all fabulous and yeah the wonderful chemistry between Serius Black...Potter's Godfather and Harry; portrayed so well, so real.

I have'nt really read the novel by Ms. Rowling though but can bet that the movie was better.

Guys go get your tickets booked in advance its a must watch..and if am saying that...it means something.

Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix...

Ok after reading these couple of blogs am sure you have an idea about me; a passionate actor and a movie buff...ok hindi movies. But hey i do watch english one's only at times though.

Only after reviews... no craze for first day first shows.

So i went for Harry Potter this sunday not because the reviews were good, only because i have been waiting for it for almost an year now. Here's another short story...Last year i happen to watch the first four Harry movies...courtesy maaah friend and i was thrilled with the third and the fourth one. Actually prisoner's (for those who havn't watched any partIII) was so far the best.

And then was looking all around to know where's the fifth one lined up. Yea am too lazy to read the story and more even to listen. Ahem...enough of me back to harry.

So first time when i noticed harry's trailor i was soo sure ill be watching this one. And then i watched it. Thats about it "how patience always brings smile to our face" if this one does'nt work for you...never mind ill soon think about some alternatives. lolz

Making of Black & White...

It isn’t that BnW is a masterpiece and I must share the art of making legendary cinema with Budding Film-makers. Neither is it that BnW is a part of critically acclaimed movies.
For me BnW portrays work of some crazy committed people who are too passionate about film-making. Of course, it’s full of technical glitches; for the paanch orkuteshwar’s has left a wide (wide-r than anyone can imagine) scope of improvement for our future productions. Although, being my first ever film will always remain close to my heart can’t comment what others believe.
The story behind its making is more than interesting: a) I have to tell you how the crew of BnW came together.
b) The story-telling session…with time and date.
c) Decision making about who’s playing who.
d) Yeah…The Judgment Day, though we had days.
e) Editing sessions…Dubbing sessions and finally
f) First screening…

Writing requires loads of patience…I have limited. Let me still try it for my readers.

Okay…So most of us including me believe orkutting is a pure waste of time…Agree.
However, its one in a million times that something like this could happen.
I found my several friends on orkut even a junior from school who enquired about how my theatre thing is going…I humbly replied fine…He repetitively asked if I can come and see him as in his group. I was home sick, alone and sad. I opted to visit him and waste my evening at ansals. Guess what my humsafar was'nt working i took a blue-line bus.
I was there not exactly on time but just 5mins late…which is acceptable. He introduced me with his theatre-mates Swati, Shalini, Jojo, Ritu-Raj, Kartikya.
Kartik my junior from school also told me as to how these guys met…on orkut and to put it rightly in Shalini’s words “A little effort for a big dream...hidden somewhere deep inside our heart...came out of the blue one day.. with a small scrap...and see the magic has started.. Welcome comrades, to the world of "Rukawat ke liye 'KHEL' hai"”. They were all there to discuss a story for a film by Swati.
The reading-session progressed and we had a few late-comers joining us though I don’t remember their names apart from Naveen’s.
We even had few improvisational exercises…Swati called of the meeting for the day...we exchange numbers and I was home.
I quickly search them all on orkut through kartik’s profile…send them friend requests got it approved. After such a long time I was finally doing something…exciting?

To be contd…

Blessed...

I always fall short of words; patience and one thing which make that one person feel real important. I can claim this as the series of incidents that have taken place in my life have witnessed these facts accompanying me. Of course there were co-actors as well who played their parts extremely well and left no scope for me to cope. Yeah am bound to lose in whatever I do.

My life is on a standstill…I don’t have with me now what I had a year back. At times i miss like Hell… Try all hard to forget it, to be bold enough and claim…I give a Damn!!! But…the toughest thing is to hide all your emotions after finding them around. Yeah for that very moment I can and only I can be the Best actor around of all times.

For the audience who have typecast me as an Entertainer… I have to entertain them. They will never accept me … as Me. As they say: The show must go on…

The more they say you’re good the more I understand “Fake”.

I can’t really comment on what went wrong, neither can I plea them to come back, nor do I have the guts even to ask if they will. Of course numerous rejections made me Gutless.

They say: Time is the biggest healer… I disagree. As the time passes by I miss them more… I miss the missing one.

India is a democratic country where wins the majority. I say: There were more than one who wanted us to part… Majority Won!!!

The more I laugh the more my eyes look around to find if you’re there "My Lost pro-per-ty".

Kuch baatein Sirf Royal Deewaro pe Rang lati hai....

Aaj socha kuch likhu..... Its a confession to all whom i love.

Am extremely sorry ma...for not t all concentrating on studies, don kno y...but din feel like....Jus lost it smwhr in midst.

Am Sorry Dost for doin wat i shud nt hv done...but wsnt intentnl...though hv no plans to cum bac or re-live dos memories.

Am sorry Bhai for being such a rude sis, a spy on ur head always...ur 2 gud 2 b tkn fr grantd. Am sorry Dad fr nt listening to u evr...though u wer correc @times only.

Am sorry God fr blamin u evrytim i felt low...wich means always

Am sorry evryone who kno me fr bein so mean n rude....Time has changd n so m i....nothn senti to b abt but hv exprinc really a lotta things in dis shrt life.

Thnx God fr my wondrful sense of humor...n giftn me wid such intellignt audinc to undrstan dem mostly!!!

LOLz

Mujse Pucho...

Bishtu aka Nautanki.... I miss wearing my school uniform. I have leadership in my veins; my right hemisphere is dominant, besides being a right handed person.

I think IM adopted.

I oil my hair before every wash. i SAVE WATER and respect elders.

Not hardworking but brainy.

The sun isn’t YELLOW, we all see things differently, maybe to me it appears black, and black for me is now yellow.

The enamel over my body dint let me taste PAIN.I have never cried while being injected.

I know yore observing me when u say i am FAT. You cannot see what I see in you.

"My Mother" is the highest authority, I owe her my life.

What you do is what you get. I don’t expect from anyone. the whole world's taken to drama, they’re are masked, THE word truth should me erased from the dictionary.

90% girls – Bitches; 90% Boys – Good to Talk only. I hate making frens esp. aftr dat last incident...There’s no reason why sometimes i feel DOWNUNDER. But it kills.

75% of my life is mere luck, 20% opportunity and only 5% of what i drew out of it.

I love to run for 30 mins everyday- stamina lacks. I am a Performer an entertainer precisely-and will be a celeb soon.

The way my hair smells after a clubbing session-SMOKE AND SHAMPOO.Ufff Hate it...

I hate eatin samosas, or any oily stuf as it leads to pimples for me.

"Nonstop nonsense",Getting along isn’t a problem. Getting for LONG is!!!

Aaj mei khush hu...

Hi my name is nidhi, or mei boht mashuhur hona chahti hu...Am a complete show-off, & i love myself for this.

I thank you all around for being so kind wih me...to all those who were.

And those were not you have jus lost ur chance to win passes fr my muvi tkts...

I wud like to thank d entire uttranchal community for their affection n support.

Like to thank Ekta, Shobha aunty Balaji. You're one persn i hv all my respect.

Thanku Sony, Star, Zee for ur wonderful trainin in acting thru ur serials, which i bet not a single School of acting can evn think of.

Thanx SRK, Amitji to maintain d standard of quality n for d neck to neck competition u guys have put across.

Thanx Rani, kareena for not knowin A of acting n makin my work more easier.

Thanx ShabanaJi KironJi to make me understand my type of cinema...

And Last but not the least thanx Mimi..i love you the most. m totally incapable in tkng care of yourslf...so pls do nt mind. Pls do tk very gud care of urself.

And Thanx to all my Fans for loving the person i am.

Love4all

Bishtu

What am i Suppose 2do in my life...

I jus cannot rite....poor me wid words!!!

M a big time loser....gud for nothn types....everyone hates me...and yes that includes ma parents as well.....luv to pretend as if m a top shot...in reality am fussi bomb types.....Am always lost into smthn or d othr.....i jus love laughing.....

Well ppl aroun say m a gud actor...i thnk dey r rite cuz m too gud @hiding emotions....i wish i was not.....m dat kinda prsn who wants to make it big(muviz)but do nothn except waitn fr d rite time....waitn fr a big director to spot me or ma talent types....I love watchn hindi muviz....akele bhi....does'nt mattr to me.....also m a prsn leadn aimless life most of us types....i really don kno hw or frm whr to start fr dat mattr....m jus a Bojh on earth...india...delhi....


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